Oh the past. Everyone has a past and every one has a future. It seems anxiety swirls around both!
I am looking forward to my future. I look forward to the 1 minute future and the next decade future. I don’t know what is to come, I don’t know what changes, trials or joys will be popping up. But I don’t not feel anxiety about it… I know my God has the future, my future in His hands and he has plans to prosper me.
But.the.past. Oh man. Some of the stupid, stupid choices I made in the past, even 14, 16 years ago past, are now coming back. Are now being thrown in my face and are on my mind. This is not what God wants for me. He does not want us to live in the past, live with any guilt or be reminded of the pain. He wants us to be free from that, to lay it at the cross and know we have been forgiven.
So why is that so hard…why can I not grasp that the past is the past? That I am not the same person I was 15 years ago, or even 10 years ago. I would not make the same choices now that I did then. I can look back and see how much I have grown, see how much my reliance on God has increased, see how I can warn young girls from falling in to the same naive choices I made…
The Devil knows your name but calls you by your sin. That is why. That statement, is so true! When I came across this…it put it in perspective for me. The enemy is the one that is throwing this in my face. He is the one who wants to remind me of the poor choices I made, He is the one who wants to keep me down.
Well, here is to letting it go. I am sure that the enemy will not give up, he will continue to try and knock me down, try to get me to wallow in my sorrows. But you know what, God has plans for me. He will use the poor choices I made and allow me to help other girls. God did not say, well, I don’t know what to do with her now, she blew it 15 years ago. NO, his promise is now. In Jeremiah 29:11 he says He “plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you a future you hope for”. It does not say, I plan to take care of you until you blow it. I plan to not abandon you until you make really poor choices. Nope, he says he has plans to give me a future I hope for. This promise is true for the future, for my future, despite my past.
Lets not let the past or the future give us anxiety, let us rest on God’s promise and look to a prosperous future, despite our failed past.